As a teenager, I never cared too much, despite wanting bigger boobs I never really felt conscious of my body and what others thought; in partitucalr what men thought. These days between 12-18 were perhaps my most carefree when it came to self-love and embracing my figure. I wore what I want and was oblivious to expentations,"body trends" and the media's expectations of the 'perfect'female physique.
That all changed when I started univeritsy.here is the thing, because I go to an art school; it meant when I lived away from home I lived with mainly females. and when females get together there are 3 main particular things which tend to come up in conversation; boyfriends, bodies and beauty regimes. it doesnt matter what decade, era or language we are describing, these 3 topics are what divide, bring together and also consquentely cause women to compete and compare themselves to one another.
my personal journey for self-love and self-acceptance has been a long, hard and lonely one. and as you can imagine, having these converstations with the girls I live with don't help much. ontop of that, comes with the lack of body compliments from my peers, apart from guys I have had relations with in the past.
so my body journey goes something like this...I am naturally petite, I am no more than 5"3 and my frame is small too, narrow shoulder and hands complete. being of west indian background where large, (and I mean large), voluptous and plus size is the norm meant that petite wasnt. I have had to explain to realtive s on several occassions that I am just small and that will never change; it is sad that I have to explain or apologie for being who I naturally am....
And despite some of my astributes could be seen as enviable I would still not clasify myself as perfection. despite being slim, I have a booty which comes with stretch marks which I hate (I hate the stretch marks) being petite means I have to carefully select clothing so I dont look like I am drowing in the fabric or like a child who is dressed in their mothers clothes. even though I am little, I have a bit of a hourglass shape so on the postive side I can wear alot of waisting clincing or emphaising things...but dont get me started on my skinny thighs...
sounds bad right?
But this year 2016, I decided to just accept myself. To being my journey of self-love.to get off instagram and stop comparing myself to other girls. To pace me and see myself as a unique, beautiful creature who is not in any competition with everyone. and to learn to love my body wihout a guy doing it for me.
hopefully, I can begin this journey successfully and when I read this post in a couple months I will have a different more positive view of my body.and hopefully, I will inspire otehrs to do the same. let's stop letting people and the media tell us what we should look like and whot we should be.
and if you were wondering, all these beautiful pictures are from:
Video Vixen Alphabet, Jade Schulz
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